I haven’t written on this blog in what seems like forever. Some major changes have been going on in my life, and some surprises too. The last time I wrote here was December 26, 2009. 5 Days later, on December 31, 2010, I found out that Joe and I were going to be parents. A little sooner than we thought, but we are SO happy about that.   As I write this now, I am 14 weeks 5 days pregnant. It’s unbelievable that I have a life growing inside me right now. I can no longer just think about myself anymore, I am sustaining a life. I think for the baby now, for it’s health and mine. We have decided on names, for a girl her name will be Julia Grace. For a boy, his name will be Joseph David. The girl’s name comes from my paternal grandfather’s name, which was Julian. His mother’s, my great-grandmother, name was Grace. The boy’s name is obviously from Joe. The baby, if a boy, will be a junior.
     As for symptoms, the nausea is mostly gone, though cleaning products still get to me (most likely my body saying it’s not good for me OR the baby!). My ta-tas are getting HUGE (well, bigger than they were before) and I am beginning to need a new bra. It’s getting more and more uncomfortable to wear jeans buttoned, as they dig into my belly. I do have a baby belly now, a little one, but it’s there! 🙂 I’m also breaking out like I was 13 again, but apparently that means girl, as “they take the beauty from their moms”. I truly think it’s a girl.
     Besides work, I’ve been keeping myself busy working on the baby registry, and now…. planning a wedding!!
TA-DAAA!!! Joe asked me to marry him, to be his wife, to spend the rest of my life with him on Valentine’s Day, right before we were going to bed. We had had a great day, including a double date with a couple we are friends with to see the Providence Bruins Game and went out to dinner afterwards. Earlier in the day however, before Joe and I left the house, we were walking out of our bedroom when a little box dropped out of his pocket. Yes, a RING BOX FELL out of his pocket. I said, “um, Joseph, a box just fell out of your pocket…” He was so upset, because he thought he had ruined the surprise. He kinda did, but I still didn’t know WHEN he was going to ask me. He waited until right before we went to bed, which I thought was great, as it was private and sentimental. It was so sweet, and he was so nervous, but he did it, and of course I said yes, and yeah, we are getting married in June of this year. So now, not only are we planning for a baby, but we are planning for a wedding as well. It’s fun though. Not really stressful at all, as my mom is helping a ton. We are getting married in a Revolutionary War era Armory, http://web.mac.com/sageanne123/Bristol_Train_of_Artillery/About.html  that my brother, sister-in-law and nephews are all a part of. It’s a great place, and how awesome is it that my fiance, who is in the Army will be getting married in an armory? Surrounded by the history that he loves? I’m really excited. Anyway, I should probably go out and enjoy today, take a walk with my camera, and enjoy what the day has to offer. I am going to try and write at least once a week, on Tuesdays, as that is when my weeks start with this baby. So, keep an eye out for new posts, I’ll try to keep things interesting. 🙂

 

**pictures taken from my Newport Hospital ultrasound and http://www.babycenter.com/fetal-development-images-14-weeks **

“Love of My Life” Jim Brickman

“I look in your eyes
I’m lost inside your kiss
I think if i’d never met you
About all the things i’d missed

sometimes it’s so hard to believe
when a love can be so strong
and faith gave me the strength
and kept me holding on

You are the love of my life
And I’m so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life”

As I look back on this year, I can’t help but be in awe of how my life has changed, and how much I have changed as a person. It’s unbelievable to me how much I have accomplished over this past year. Let’s do a little timeline…

December 2008-
I graduated with a Bachelor’s Degree in Sociology from UConn, the #1 Public University in New England (East Coast?)
Moved back to RI
Met the man I would eventually move in with

January 2009
Began Graduate School

March 2009
Spent Spring Break in Florida with my cousin. Slept in until 11am every day then went to the beach. It was FANTASTIC!
Turned 24- now in my “mid-twenties”

April 2009
Realized I was MADLY in love with the man I met in December. Spent pretty much every free moment with him… walking the beach, geocaching, watching the Military Channel, talking…

May 2009
Made the decision to not settle any longer and ended the relationship I had been in since high school (with a break at one point but all together it was almost 5 years) I still believe this was one of the best decisions I had made in a long time. Not only was I not happy, but I felt like my life was going nowhere. I didn’t have that partner who would grow with me, who would help me in this thing called life. A short time after, I began dating the man I had met in December… I have never been happier. On May 4th, I realized I had met the man of my dreams, the “knight in shining armor” that every little girl dreams of meeting. I knew I would marry him. I just knew.
Finished my 1st semester of graduate school and decided i wouldn’t be going back. I was completely burnt out from going to college for 5.5 years then entering graduate school less than a month after graduating undergrad. At least I tried.

July 2009
Went camping with my family, including my new beau, who came up a few days later. Spent about 3 hours one day sitting in beach chairs in the Saco River reading, just enjoying each others company and the sights and sounds of the river.

September 2009
Began working almost full-time. Enjoyed it but didn’t love it. Applied to a new job, with no interview (yet.. keep reading!)
Moved in with my long-time friend Ashley and my boyfriend. Yes it was only 4 months since we started dating. It felt like longer…

October 2009
Unofficially Engaged. Yes, he asked me to marry him.
YES!

November 2009
6 months with Joe Yes we argue, yes we annoy each other, but I know, in my heart, that there is no other person on this Earth who is more right for me. He is the Love of My Life. He is my Best Friend, he is my One and Only. My Soulmate.
Got my dream job, working for the Navy, as a co-teacher for pre-toddlers. I adore my job.

December 2009
Almost a month at my new job. I love it. I love going to work every day. It’s fabulous. I love the little ones I teach, I love the people I work with, I truly love my job!
Not officially engaged yet, still waiting for something sparkly. No rush, just waiting on him. 🙂
Have officially lost 23 lbs since moving home from UConn.

What’s up for 2010?
5 years that my best friend Debbie has been gone. Want to plant a rosebush in her memory at our high school. Gotta get on that.
Engagement?
Possibly going back to graduate school (again) to get my Master’s in Early Childhood Education or another Bachelor’s in ECE with a Certification in ECE.
Joe is going to be leaving in 9 days for training for the Army. It’ll be the longest we’ve gone without seeing each other. He’ll be all around the US for most of the Spring for training… he has a deployment coming up too… Right now we are taking one day at a time. Enjoying each other, loving each other.

I’m pretty sure that was one of the longest posts ever. My feet are falling asleep from sitting on my bed. Time to do something else.

Good Night.

LYL JDC

Just a quick post-
Happiness Ensues! Living with the love of my life in an apartment we share with my best friend. Just got my “big girl” job, working for the Navy at their Child Development Center as a co-teacher in a pre-toddler classroom. I absolutely adore my job, and I love going to work everyday. It’s so exciting to have a job I love.
I’ll write more tomorrow, this chica is getting sleepy.

Boa Noite

My boyfriend told me today that after he finished his 4 week training in the Spring, that he’d like to volunteer to go back in the Active Army. He will most likely be sent overseas.  This is my first time actually having to deal with a deployment. First time having to think about a loved one in the brunt of it all.  I told him that I’d still be here when he got back, still his girl.  I’m just faced now with the fact that he couldn’t promise me that he’d come back in one piece.

War terrifies me. It scares the shit out of me.  I don’t understand why we have to fight, but I agree with what our soldiers/sailors/Marines are doing over there, they are protecting our homeland, our freedom.  I just don’t understand why people have to be hurt, or killed.  It’s not necessary.  Same thing with guns. Don’t care for them. Except for the ones that squirt water. Knowing that my boyfriend will be there, with all that, with people who hate, hate, hate us, makes me sick to my stomach.   He loves it though, he misses it, he wants to go back.  I accept that, and I told him I’d support him 110%, but I hope, pray that he’ll be okay.

Trying to get back into blogging. I think it’s a good idea for me to get my ideas out on “paper”, so I’m going to give it a try. Again.

It’s raining again, though this time it’s accompanied by thunder and lightning. At least it’s doing something! Though I really wish I could have taken a walk with my boyfriend to see the full moon on the beach. Stupid clouds.

Been somewhat confused lately, pretty much only one of my friends from college are paying attention to my tweets/facebook. I think it all stems from me not having the money to go to a friend’s birthday party at a bar back in May. I didn’t have the money to spend on alcohol or gas to drive 2 hours, so I wasn’t able to go. I know it pissed her off, but I couldn’t just ask my parents for money, it doesn’t work that way sometimes. I don’t get though why no one really is responding to stuff, when they respond to other friends in the same outlets.    I think I’m in a different place now than some of my friends, and it’s tough to think about, but I think that is what’s happening.  I’ve decided not to go back to graduate school for the time being and I don’t really drink anymore.  Actually, I haven’t had any alcohol in about a month.  I’m fine with it too.  I’m trying to save up money to move out, and spending money on alcohol is a waste.

On a happier note, I have found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.  I thought I had met “him” before, but now I know those people weren’t the “one”. I knew from the start  that this guy is the one for me.  I know it sounds crazy, but it is so true. It really does hit you like a ton of bricks like in the movies.  I can’t wait to start our life together, and love making memories with him.  Never thought I’d date someone again who was shorter than me, but that doesn’t matter anymore.  He’s “the one” and I love him more everyday.

Got the letter finally telling me I was denied admission to the grad school I was trying to get into. Because of my GPA from undergrad.  I don’t care though anymore because I realized I wasn’t ready to go into graduate school. I need to decide what I want to do, then go from there.  I will most likely be going to a different school either next Spring or Fall. It just depends where I am.  If he gets stationed at the Army base in N. Carolina, then I may in fact move down there.  Change of scenery is good.  The only bad thing about this denial thing is that now I really have no desire to finish the courses I need to finish.

I need ice cream. Or chocolate.

good night.